Yahh!! I overcame my fears Prt A

Hello Beautiful readers, I trust you are as awesome as i am.

Today i am going to write about overcoming your fears...cos i just did mine and i feel so damn goooooood!!. So this on this particular day, i conceived an idea for my department where i work, it turned out  to be a good and viable project after analysis but....i was told to lead it and the team! The beginning of my fears. Thing is that part of the project was to speak to an audience of more than 4000 and frankly i can't even say my name completely in front of 10 people not to talk of 4000 people OMG!!

So i told my Boss 'I CAN'T'. Chai, those two stupid words got me the scolding of my life!! He preached to me yeh, he talked for two whole weeks to me, he called me, he pleaded, he screamed, he was almost disappointed as he said he didn't see why i cannot do it cos i have all it takes and everyone sees it except me. He almost brought down the office building because i had muttered those two words. I still looked him straight in the eye like korokoro and i maintained my stand I CAN'T! come and kill me.

My boss and i had a huge argument over my refusing to go ahead with the project and it actually lingered for over two weeks. Inside me i knew i can do it but somewhere in me i was scared of even accepting i could do this but i was saying all the 'I CAN'T' with all my heart my dear. Part of the reasons i held on to my 'No i can't' was as a result of my secondary school debate days when i blanked in front of the audience (I had forgotten all my lines), my team failed due to this, so that fear has held me captive for over 8 years. And he wants me to lead another team and also present for 4000 people??? Like sending me to go and just fall my hand.

Suddenly i fell sick especially when i knew i could not escape it cos he literally dumped it on me, he challenged me, there was no room for escape. My team members said they know i can do it, my supervisor said i can, everyone said i can but i thought to myself I can't.

The day for the presentation got nearer and i got more sick. Everyone was actually depending on me to deliver. Unknowingly to them i kept dodging every meetings that would lead to the topic. I was comfortable with my fears then something switched...........


Good Night Guys.
Kisses.
Will continue in the next drop. A girl has to go tidy up some stuff. Have a great weekend aii.